and when i stop it will be at the point at which i have decided to stop. because one day i am going to need to write coherently for any number of reasons, for example on the gre. or if i participate in law school. which i would like to do, but maybe after a few years of volunteer things. like, i can't decide between americorps and peace corps, so i think i'll do both. then again, damn it i wish i'd fucking graduated last year, that will be 2 total years plus in between time. i need to apply now. and say that i'm available now. that is what i will do. plus, i really kind of want to try to do the marines. i feel like i've been an underachiever for the last 4 years and am capable of doing good work. i don't necessarily need to partake in violence in the marines would i? like intelligence or diplomacy or a international representative or ambassador or something. that sounds fun. i am also very interested in neuroscience/neurobiology and the way the brain works, for example the state of the brain during certain thoughts or how electricity in the brain is a factor to our ability to think, and how the synaptic leap of neurons might be similar to a "leap of faith" one might make in everyday life, like how there are similarities between the projected foreseeable universe and the cross-cut of a neuron of a rat.
this is enlightening and i am encouraged by my ability to write a few lines at a time like this. it is odd how sometimes we - i generalize, this occurs to me but mayn't occur to others - how sometimes i don't know how i feel or what i think about a topic or something until i open my mouth to talk about it. like the ideas were formed prior in my head or in my unconsciousness somewhere and only spilled out by accident. or not. not accident that is. it seems like the same thing occurs whilst writing. ooh i want to put down this single thought, but i'll put it in the proper context for myself (this is assuming i'm the only one who will read this, which is probably accurate):
Micah R Sollenberger from Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
- this article refers to the humanoid Micah Sollenberger, for other uses see Micah Sollenberger (disambiguous) Micah Robert Lahman Sollenberger is a homo sapien and American citizen born January 15 1987 in Harrisburg Pennsylvania to his parents. He is 6'1" and currently weighs 160 pounds. He has one older brother and one younger sister and is of a long family line of Christian believing, church going, well-respected pacifist Brethren. While he would admit his upbringing has been "superb", he is sometimes frustrated with the general lack of certainty in this life and the frustrations everyday existence bring. He studied Philosophy at Manchester College, a time he calls "academically and socially harrowing, though I love the fact that I got to spend 4 and a half years with my maternal grandparents and various Lahman relatives". He is currently writing up a pseudo-Wikipedia article on his blogger account. His future remains unseen, though he plans on dying in the year 2077(!).
haha you get the point. what i'm trying to say is that i frequently read my life like a wikipedia article, to curious ends. like which external links will the reader click? will the "Sollenbergers" have made a name for themselves yet? will I have made a name for myself yet? will I have realized that this is futile yet? I want to do something though. except that no one does that. just do what you do.
lots of things happened since last post, can't say i've completely given it up but saturday was a step in that direction. i enjoy it. why can't i? you're better off driving. isn't that ridiculous? why is the product even legal in the first place? either way, don't want to go through that again. and can't f/ up again. again. ever. so i'll be more careful, this place is run by folks who don't mess around. which might explain its success. it's cold though man. real cold.
watched the phillies clinch the alds, which means i'll be watching them for another week. sports are a funny thing, but ultimately they are just games and can't be held in serious discussion. i'm working on breaking that trance as well. need to grow up and take the bull by the horns. I'd rather take the flower by the stem and just, you know, get married. work something something, live somewhere. don't care. done caring. but never will be. ready to face the charges.
man this emotional over 3 misdemeanors and 1 felony, i can't imagine facing something forreal. FA-REAL! passed that stage too.
This is my essay on "Fringe Science" for a Philosophy of Science class. I received a D+ for it I believe. Rightly so...I (pause) often have no comment. In this case, I want to state my sadness
Philosophy of Science
Fringe Science: 10/7/08
Micah Sollenberger
While the field of study I have chosen doesn’t have a name just yet, I’m quite confident that in the next one hundred and fifty years or so it will be able to step out of the realm of fringe science and into the world of scientific truth.This area of study is often ridiculed and occasionally “debunked”, but it never seems to be fully explained away.Conspiracy theories are labeled as such by the people accused of manipulating money, government, the mass media and therefore the masses and so instead I will call this study the study of alternative truths.
Now, you might wonder how the study of alternative truths can be anything but an oxymoron given the nature of alternative and the nature of truth, inherently understood as that which is not false.But unfortunately, since the beginning of time, human beings have been manipulating the situations they exist in to better provide for food or water or security or whatever will help them survive longer.Therefore, since the beginning of time there has been what actually happened and what was recorded as having happened.Sometimes these two coincide, and sometimes they don’t.
This leads me to some theories of the study of alternative truths: first, there exists a loosely knit group of ruling elite, many of which bounce between high-level corporate and governmental positions, as well as many non-governmental organizations.These non-governmental organizations (NGO’s) were created by them to pursue an agenda based on the advancement of their own, or others like them.Secondly, this group has been controlling the money supply for almost one hundred years, and similar others have been sitting on billions of dollars since the 1930’s, leaving little doubt that a proactive and focused attempt to infiltrate world politics was impossible.
Thirdly, finding themselves capable of manipulating money (the Great Depression), government (World Bank, IMF, countless interventions in Latin America) and the mass media (read, corporate media), this group has taken every possible opportunity to profit from war, poverty and misery on just about every level of the global stage, due mostly to the trickle down effect of loss, as nobody is willing to suffer greatly so that others may lose less, and conversely nobody is going to give up more so that others may gain little.This has been going on for decades.
Fourthly, it is still going on as we speak.Everything from HIV/AIDS to the “terrorist” bombings of the U.S.S. Cole and 9/11 to the current financial crisis has been pre-determined and carried out in order to pass laws that constrict the rights of U.S. citizens, allow for funding of astronomical proportions (U.S. Defense budget was $500+ billion this/last year) and control populations. Furthermore, “terrorism” is a fabricated illusion of all of our imaginations, planted by those who are in charge of the truths we are told, tended by those that want us to fear one another and watered by those “quo bono”; who benefit.
To asses said claims, allow us to look at the facts; the empirical evidence.There is countless evidence that those in charge of what we understand to be true are withholding some information.The FBI and the CIA both contain more information than I will ever know.
Explanatory power: these claims explain every conceivable suspicious activity that has occurred ever since the Great Depression.They all tie into one main problem and offer one main conclusion for everything.Therefore it has terrific predictive power, as multiple people foresaw the events of September 11 2001 (Aaron Russou, for example).
As far as in-breadth explanatory power is concerned, this one covers them all.
In depth explanatory power: we only know so far as inside agents have been willing to dispose; due to the wickedness of those running the show, most people who spill any beans wind up dead within a few years.
In conclusion, the degree to which this is a good empirical science and whether it should remain a fringe science is tough to tell, mainly because of the conflicting stories between what we are told and what we are able to find out on our own, separately.There are few experiments to run and any conclusions that are contradictory to the official stories are hard to believe, as most people rationalized internally how they wanted to understand and accept as fact what they witnessed in each given circumstance.The truth of the matter is unknown to most of us, but until someone figures out a solution we will continue to be at the whim of the events of the day, regardless of whether or not some group of someone’s is running the world.
* this is a brief series review of the newest "It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia" episode: season 5 episode 4, Frank's Intervention.
Danny DeVito is absolutely killing it in the new episode of It's Always Sunny, you're favorite show on FX about the classic gang of Philly's finest bar, Paddy's Pub. So far he's been a drunken bumbling garbling hobo trying to bang his sister-in-law at her husbands funeral, with an absolutely brilliant display of drunkenness on the streets walking Philadelphia suburbs with Mac. Meanwhile the psychological siblings continue to embarrass and harass various people, bringing Charlie into the mix in an attempt to stabilize Frank, hilariously portrayed by Mr. DeVito himself. More to follow..
{hahaha Charlie intervenes on Dennis and Dee due to a drinking problem, which of all else is drinking wine out of a can, which is, by the way, 'brilliant!'.}
"we're gonna get all in your face and point out your faults.." "a roast? I've always wanted to be roasted. oh wait let me just switch gears here, fire up this spliff!" - hahaha best line of the episode
amazing 5th episode, in some ways i'm glad i missed it and downloaded it tonight to watch it, it went perfect with the final episode of season one.
peace, love to all sunny fans, and unity and justice for all philly fans. go phillies!
it's been one week since my topsiders were jacked from the locker room. rip.
i've chosen atheism, or new-atheism for my research topic for the senior seminar and hope to come to some neat conclusions. the first article we read mentions belief as an alternative to doubt if only to give someone something to live for. personally, i feel like believing in god is just as silly as saying that god doesn't exist, which i suppose leaves agnosticism as the default category, but i believe in the idea of god. the idea of god is a powerful and seductive mindset for we humans, and i think it's a tossup as to whether it's been more constructive or destructive over the course of human existence.
speaking of, i signed up for twitter, weheartit, re-signed up for facebook, and am actively blogging on this homo site, so we'll see what that means.
i just lost $5 dollars on pokerstars, but still have 6 left. need to make some money and stat. motorcycle is 1500, new acoustic is 8-10, oh and my 6 THOUSAND DOLLARS OF ADDITIONAL SCHOOL LOANS WILL NEEDED PAID SOME HOW. what a fucking twat you are. i am. i hate this stupid school. manchester college is bullshit. fuck this place. i fucking love it. doublethink. utilize it. finished hemingway's the sun also rises for class, what a joke. the class that is, not the book. the book was good, i can't wait to see spain. spain, france, portugal, england, no screw western europe i want to see the eastern style european shiz. supposedly the exchange rate is better there for americans. i want my life threatened, i want to be hated, fuck the usa man. it is still awesome though. so on the other hand I kinda want to join the Marines. serve the country. blow the smoke of pacifism and non-violence out to sea. maybe just follow the bouncing dollar.
