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the new york times reports that 78% of people who feel "great about themselves, i think" or who feel "at least somewhat confident about my skills" were found to regularly write or type their ideas into some real world, physical medium. not to say that blogger.com is real world, but at least it's something. the other 22% of folks just enjoyed soaking in the opinions of others. which led me to this in a way: for, i suppose, my whole life, and especially these last 3 i've been expecting someone to tell me "the answers", or in a way, i've enjoyed only soaking in the opinions and advice of others. "good listener" was something i got on my report card at least 2 times (maybe, i don't know actually), which is better than "i've never seen a bigger waste of potential", which i got once. but goddamn it, i was always expected to find the answers in that class (physics)(!). what is the point of discovering for myself, answers that have already been found? does something seem a little repetitive about that? well you do that to learn the method, obviously. that is obvious isn't it? if only i'd had a journal in 11th grade. seriously though, often times i start saying things to answer a personal question, and find information out about myself as my answer progresses. maybe introverted and personal weren't the best traits to develop, and perhaps a girlfriend would have been a good idea at some point, if only to correct my terribly flawed logic. i hear there's other benefits of this type of relationship too.

i wonder if i can make this non-public.