hmm

so i just spent like 30 min writing a post on my fantasy baseball message board, but i can't scrape together 15 minutes for a simple string of sentences on here? well, i am now. i mean, shit, it's sunday and i have no family (close by), no responsibilities (per se), and a sweet computer and the internet. haha, joshua asks me what i do all day; i don't think he understands the internet.

anyway, it's what 3 months since i wrote anything? lame.. idk why, maybe because the colors on this page are so god awful. just hideous (hey i kind of like them) shit well they're not bad by themselves, or even together they are (i actually do like them) but some time put into it would make it much nicer. blahhhhhhggger. lager. flogger.that's all there is.

who is my audience right?
no one.
i'm writing to myself. except that your thing is viewable to people. well 1 person.

sam if you ever read this i had no idea your pictures from google buzz were attached to words, or that you were such an avid keep-tracker-of daily information. i guess that's really the point of this site, but who wants others to read it? why didn't i ever keep a journal? forget it who cares.

just start now.
but i'm too busy being a sponge.
well squeeze yourself out every once in awhile. you can't always be shoving things into your brain, sometimes it's therapeutic to wring something out from time to time.. with your own twist of course.
hmm, thats. not. a. bad. way. of putting it.
thanks.
no thank you.

(do all people converse with themselves mentally? surely. thus, scizcsophrenia is a bogus condition. schizophrenia isn't though. hey i type phrenetically. you mean frenetically. yes and no. ha!)

oh snap lvb for the finale..

a man sat in a tree twiddling his thumbs.
a bird flew by and stopped, sat, and stared.
what's the matter bird he said, haven't you seen a man do nothing before?
the bird cawed once, twice, then flew up into a gust, and coasted on the breeze..
the difference between man and bird? birds don't have thumbs.

that was stupid. whatever. who cares?